Frustration and Despair

Today started out as one of those days...A day filled with anxious and fearful thoughts, frustration and a touch and a dollop of doubt and despair. Now I will say that in the eight weeks since James lost his job, I have had incredible peace. I have felt the hand of God all over my family. Our financial needs are being met and life has been trucking along. But today, doubt and anxiety crept in, for both James and me.

What do you do when doubt, frustration, anxiety and despair attacks your faith and your steadfastness? For me, my first response is to fix it. As I've said before, I'm a 'grab the bull by the horns' kind of gal. I come up with a solution and make things happen. But in this situation, there is nothing I can do to fix it. I can't make a job happen. I can't change our situation or our circumstances. All I can do is trust and have faith and have patience. And to say that trust, faith and patience is not my strong suit is an understatement.

James and I were discussing in the kitchen how we were both feeling disheartened and frustrated while my sweet 7-year-old son sat eating his morning cereal. During a break in the conversation, he states, "There is nothing my God cannot do." WOW!!!! I asked him why he said, that, "I don't know, it's a song I like and it just popped in my head and so I decided to say it out loud."

The Lord is so faithful! He took the words of a child to bring this mother to her knees and turn her face from focusing on the situation that is causing anxiety and despair and back where it belongs on her Heavenly Father.

I had stepped out of the boat and started sinking when I took my eyes off of Jesus and focused on the storm that is raging all around me. My focus has got to be on Jesus at all times or I will sink in the muck and the mire of despair and anxiety.

We have no idea when this situation will be worked out, but I do know that God knows. He has been there the whole time, He's not anxious or frustrated or in despair about our situation. MY God is so big, so strong and so mighty...there is NOTHING my GOD cannot do!!!!

After I wrote this blog, I felt that I needed to make sure and include a scripture with my blog, but didn't have one in mind to share. I basically opened my Bible up and this is what the Lord showed me. Awesome, huh???

I waited patiently for God to help me; then He listened and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the pit of despair, out from the bog and the mire, and set my feet on a hard, firm path and steadied me as I walked along. He has given me a new song to sing, of praises to our God. Now many will hear of the glorious things He did for me, and stand in awe before the Lord, and put their trust in Him. Psalms 40:1-3